And so I left with a heavy heart. Luggage aplenty. This relationship was wonderful, but sometimes if you love someone you have to leave her. Before you become a burden. I love you. I swear I do.

And so I left with a heavy heart. Luggage aplenty. This relationship was wonderful, but sometimes if you love someone you have to leave her. Before you become a burden. I love you. I swear I do.

the end

'cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

i suppose this is the most meaningful song i've ever used, to remember a person. that it'll be you turning out this way certainly took me by surprise. its time to ditch all the alter-egos, and revert to the original self-bashing one.

i'm sure you'll find solace soon enough. go on, fan the flames, but as it will and eventually must, die off. go forth and find happiness, i sincerely wish you all the best.

because alcohol weakens my resolve, i will never turn to it again to tide through unhappy moments. my head hurts like crazy.

alright, good old studies and work first.


God, where do i go from here?

feeling sick like . . . nobody's business

wednesday is officially the most detested and ridiculous day of this new semester. fancy making my way down just for 1 stupid lesson from 830 to 930. but the saving grace is that this module is actually rather interesting considering my love for ancient chinese/japanese origins. in case you're in the dark about this, i'm a hardcore sangoku fan. BUT BUT BUT spare me all that talk of a particular race of people originating from a Sun goddess, especially when i don't even subscribe to the christian notion of humans descending from adam and eve. no disrespect intended but to me, humans and human efforts > intervention of any god.

and just to add, i've been puking a bit lately, maybe its my stomach subconsciously resisting the intake of rubbish food whatsoever. but i'm actually praying for the reoccurrence of my kidney stones saga to bring about a 10kg weight loss.



a few more hours to fluffy. *fast forwards






somehow i dont know why i never thought of performing this for hall events. there's zilch opportunities for it now and oh well lets just enjoy it original.

technically my first day of school

i'm so not used to this. waking up real early to travel half the island's distance just to get to school. it seems as if 3 months just passed by without biding farewell. 

apparently i'm supposed to send in an audition clip for this _________ thingy introduced by a good friend. and that if it takes off i can finally move on in my life. but then again that isn't quite exactly what i want now.

what i really want now is to get my ass back home tucked in bed and with the aircon at full blast. 

i'm a defeated man once again. what wrong did i commit by choosing to walk the path of silence? 

我终于知道内疚

this song is perfect for emo-ing, not that I have any reason to do so currently. been on my replay for several times already and never fails to make my hair stand.